 Josh <Review Old Rants> Post Date: 6/30/2004 11:06:38 PM Message: Hello. The mind has weakened, do you not see it torn at the edges? I feel it. Just remember, that it's all in your head. Memoirs Now please leave me alone. Do not interrupt the darkness.  Jorge <Review Old Rants> Post Date: 9/10/2004 12:12:40 AM Message: befor i used to enjoy the fact that i was naturally childish. people probably though of me as imature... and although i am, i really didnt care. why? becouse im young. im 18...and in reality, i still am a baby. thats how i justified my imaturity. but i look around, and everyone is growing up. everyone has views and ideas and opinions. im incredibly selfish... ive never really cared about the world or wanted anything to ever be difficult... and if it was then id consider it not worth the trouble. i look at myself, and realize i have no voice. i never give my opinion on things, either cause i dont care or am ignorant about it. who cares what i think, it wont change anything. my ideas dont make sence, my mind works on what i can only describe as spontaneous combustion. one moment i can be attentive, the other im in space. i can be in the middle of preparing a proposal for bristol bay apartments precast pieces, and im thinking of why does water make bumps on my wooden drawing board and what the molecules would look like if i were to see it. i dont have a voice, literally. i dont have that type of strong voice that beccons to be listened to. i hate that, becouse i so rarely decide on sharing... and when i do its wasted. ive never had a real conversation. talk to me about cartoons or about ballons sticking to your hair becouse of static. but tell me your uncle has cancer and ask me how i feel about that. ask me what i would do. what do i say to that?... i feel like many of the things i have i dont deserve em. even if i was a good boy, and was quiet when asked to be, and never asked for too many toys... or never faught with the other kids... i never worked hard in my life. there was a point in which i probably did, and i dropped it becouse it was work. im lazy and unmotivated. thats what my parents say, and now that i see it, everyone else says it too. i could stay in the spot im in forever...sitting in this chair typeing all the bull i can come up with. even if there isnt anything to say about it, or no reason to apologize... becouse you cant. ive set myself to these limitations and when the time comes to push myself, theres nothing of me to use. i havent earned anything in my life, everything comes to me... i hate that, i hate it so much. becouse as i try to grow up im rewarded for doing nothing. i didnt earn my job... i didnt find my girlfriend... i dont know how i graduated high school. and i admit, at times i struggled. my brain can think straight and im having enough trouble making sence in this rant. why i write it. i would never be able to speak this, it belittles and degrades me... the worst part being that this is me. this is who i am. ive never finished anything in my life, and probably never will  Jasser <Review Old Rants> Post Date: 4/4/2004 11:03:10 PM Message: Hey, its me...my first post. Well you guys all know me as the wanna-be samurai, although i think i could beat josh in a duel. I admit though Jorge has me on the drawing thing. haha well later  Dre <Review Old Rants> Post Date: 4/27/2008 3:53:38 PM Message: Hey folks, Josh here. This is a filler message until Dre realizes that he's got an account on the website for ranting. I guess until then, this will remain. I suppose I'll offer up a bit of a more formal introduction. The newest member, in the four odd years since I added the ranting system and only individual to penetrate the original triad, Andres "Dre" Redondo. An artist of sorts, he has been associated with the group for years and has assisted in many inventions, as well as whine about not seeing any changes. Warm welcomes. We'll find out how often he really checks the site as I don't intend to tell him of this new account and await his request for access to his new account. -Josh |
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